I was making out with my boyfriend
He was fondling my boobs
Then he suddenly froze
A washed look on his face
Honey, what is this?
I didn’t think anything
I have clumpy breasts
Plus my cycle was due soon
Until my hand felt what he had felt
Um, what the fuck is this?
It was a lump
Like a hard, solid, and round lump
Fuck, I don’t have health insurance!
My entire body went into shock
A week before I helped a friend through a herpes scare
The same friend gave me back
my own advice
There’s no sense in worrying until
you know for sure
I listened, sobbing on the phone
That is terrible advice!
My animal body doesn’t give a
fuck about the details
She wants to cry, scream, shout,
punch pillows and be held
She wants to feel the fight, flight and freeze all the way
Not to be stopped by logic
Another friend sent me to a local
free clinic—Every Woman Counts
Was the name of the insurance
given for free breast exams
I want to hug and kiss the founder of this!
That look on the doc’s face when
she touched the lump
My best friend told me they are alarmists
But not fucking comforting!
3 longest days later
I dragged my boyfriend to
get an ultrasound
So mechanical for such an
The next words changed my life
Oh, it’s just a benign cyst
Relief followed but the
What if it weren’t a benign cyst?
What bullet did I just dodge?
I am finally doing what I love to do
My true purpose of serving people
All of that was hanging by a
thread for a week
Life would have been short as is
But I still found the love of my life and my purpose
I am grateful to my supportive friends and a loving boyfriend
I am so moved, touched and inspired by this experience
As cliché as it is—life is short!
Live, love and laugh as often as possible my friends
I know for sure
I'm ALL IN—COMMITTED TO LIFE♥️🔥